"I don't have many questions,
that you cannot answer.
I'm kinda simple that way."
Josh Ritter.
And so I walk down a another street unsatisfied. Despite recent disappointments, I find another restaurant close by. This one is fancier, offering a much more elaborate menu. I briefly wait in the entrance before I am seated and a menu is placed before me.
I am approached by a waiter, and I patiently wait as he rattles off his memorized list of specials. The list is exhaustive and it's hard to keep my pose. I want to be polite and let him finish. But I have to be honest with myself, I really only have one thing on my mind, and I knew it before the waiter even opened his mouth...
What I want isn't on the menu, as least not today.
In the end, to his disappointment, I tell him that I'm fine and a coffee will do.
The reality is that I am fine. I might even be great. Life has once again taken some strange paths and led me to an intersection so peculiarly 'right' that it has to be divine. I feel as if I moving away from months of searching because I've had some strange encounter with truth. A new struggle emerges as I need to let go of some of the 'unknowns' in my life, and once again accept something concrete. Not that I fully understand what this transition means, but one thing I do know is that spiritually, I'm moving in a different direction because I have been confronted by the truth.
For all this, I am very thankful. In the midst of this I express my discontent... it's not that I'm unhappy with life, it's just that sometimes, I really want someone to share it with... but if it's not on the menu, there isn't much i can do but enjoy my coffee.
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