Leverage

Sometime I wonder...
If I took everything I have
All my love
All my intellect
All my strength
All my resources...
If I strategically leveraged all that is me... and left my soul hanging in the difference...
I wonder how far I could go.

The thing with latent potential is that it's latent. Some days I Don't think I'll get anywhere. That all I have to offer won't be enough to even move forwards another few steps. It's not like I'm ready to give up on myself... but all my efforts to wake what is latent seem to fall short... and my soul hangs still.

On the plus side. All these efforts and things are merely efforts and things. They're dispensable... I feel dispensable... It doesn't sound like I have much to lose if I put it that way... it's nice to think of it that way... But I sure would like to keep my soul.
Why did I put that on the line anyways?
Why does it always come down to that?

Maybe that's what Maslow was getting at. breathing and safety are important, relationships come and go... affirmation is sweet if you can get to it... but self-actualization (waking what is latent) is at the top of the pyramid for a reason. I think this is more important to me than I lead on... maybe this is what beckons my soul.

Or maybe Herzberg hits it dead on with his Motivator-Hygiene theory. Maybe satisfaction and dissatisfaction are separate. Maybe all I need to do is capitalize on motivators and minimize hygiene factors that bread dissatisfaction.

Or maybe I should stop looking at social scientists to help me describe my needs and look to the real source.