Redefinition

At the very least, you are redeeming me to once again hope in what could be.
At the most... you could be everything.

These day are beautiful. I enjoy taking them in... but there is a new complexity to them. Different from before. I slow myself and stand in the midst. As everything races around me, the wind almost knocks me over. They aren't forceful. In fact, they're quite pure... too much beauty to take in. I get startled.

Of all the good that weighs heavily on me...
Of all the answers to desperate prayers...
Of all hope that has recently taken the place of despair.

I still find myself stopping.

"Father, I just want you to be proud of me... you're proud of me right?"

I don't ever want to place my hope what's going on around me... but at the same time I want to graciously accept all that You want to pour in to my life. I'm just scared of messing it up.

I take a few moments. I let truth in. Knowing that only You could have put me here, and that You have clearly placed me here to move forwards. Most importantly, you make me able.

I love you. I don't want to over analyze... I just want to stay close to You. I'm willing, You know I am... I just get scared.

All the affirmation I need is in You.